I wrestled with these questions for many years, influenced by some key events in my life.
For me, at least, I have finally come to understand answers that appear to me completely consistent and help me be a better person. I offer to share my experiences with you as I sought to find answers. If you wish you may click on links above and consider whether these thoughts may be of help to you.
I would be very happy to hear from you and receive your comments via email. Thanks for letting me share.